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Thursday, March 31

If i have five wishes now, i would want to wish that...

... my family would accept Christ and be faithful.

... i would have more energy to stretch out to the people i wanna help.

... going back to the childhood days with ahgong and mummy around.

... be more clear and decisive to how i want to walk on.

... be happy.

Heli Dont ask me why 12:16 AM

Wednesday, March 30

Bwah.

Bwah just a day where i don't feel like sleeping but tired. So boring lately.
Nothing to talk or do online. Okay i'm trying to converse in perfect english with yuting online now. Sounds so weird. I think end up i'll just not talk. Laugh out loud.

Nobody is commenting in my blog anymore! Booooo. Comment people comment!

Oh by the way, i finally passed my GP essay. 23/50. *smile*

Heli Dont ask me why 12:10 AM

Monday, March 28

Boo. why does school starts tomorrow(ok actually is in 7 hours time)... so dreading. I know for sure once it starts, the next break will be june hols. NO PUBLIC HOLIDAY IN APRIL AND ONLY TWO IN MAY. Damn it. June june i can't wait for june!

fwahaha. i dunno why i just feel like fwahaha here only. =P

bleah neh mind beta go sleep. 0530 hour more to sleep.

Heli Dont ask me why 12:16 AM

Sunday, March 27

what do you do when all you can do is miss somebody.
what do you do when things are just not within your means.
what do you do when all you can do is just watch
what do you do when things are just meant to be this way.
hah its back to same sentence.
"all the roles i played in, never happy ending."
*bah. i realise i really will miss you.
and these days.. i really wonder why i come online for.

Heli Dont ask me why 1:20 AM

Thursday, March 24

an Up and Down night. =)

kinda excited to blog what happen jus now! went with yixin for mini night cycle! lols but i'm too tired though. heh. ok i'll try.

Hah we started at serangoon(this charissa always disturb me disrupt me type. boo.)
Wanted to head to little india initially just by following the mrt line down.
End up before we reached woodleigh mrt station, we decided to head right.
Not long later we ended up at braddel and kinda unsure to go on or not.
We followed on and reached toapayoh. And we decided to follow the route of bus 88.
Feeling a little unsure of the correct direction, heh we passed by singapore press holdings.
Then we reached bishan! and then junction 8. Kinda cool eh to see the place at night.
Heh then we changed plan and decided to follow the 156 route! back to serangoon.
( oh for info, till here, the time taken was an hour. fast? )
Haha. so kinda fun and entertaining along the way. We still went on up the yiochukang "hill" and then hougang and then pungool park.. and we departed. lols.

Heh and really kinda "enlighten" by simple things along the way. Like really the part when we are going down hill, it's really fast. And going up hill, its really tiring, but when you finally reach the top, there's a sense of satisfaction. Indeed. Life is full of ups and downs.

Ok hah maybe kinda lengthy to all of ya. but well.. haha.

Good nite le. oh block test finally ended. =)

Heli Dont ask me why 12:47 AM

Saturday, March 19

Boooo 9pm show finally ended today le. Hah i think chen song ling is so cool and so nice. Loved her a lot eh. And then i watched the show... make me want to have 2 sisters! (but well.. God gave me two unlovely bro. [>.<]

Actually i always yearn for sisters de ma. Like dunno since when have been searching! One that would take care of me, hah bring me go shopping, pei me gossip girl stuffs and the list go on and on.. so many things i want to do if i got a jie jie! So many places i want her to bring me around. So opposite to my situation at home now. Bleah only gerl.. talk to wall ah.

then in the show chew chow meng said smth bout people always finding the perfect one for them without realising they are not the perfect one for the other partner. so true eh. i think i would settle for a guy who's like him so teng chen song ling everything also will give in de. heh of cos cannot no zhu jian la. to have a guy who dotes on you, i think it's more xing fu that way. =)

so ya i'm still studying. can't seem to finish everything by sunday. i keep thinking today is saturday and scared myself a few times thinking left only one more day. Studying econs now then i feel so tired. as though i'm climbing a mountain, and yet another mountain.. and yet another one.

Actually once in a while i thought of what i said to you yesterday, and i felt so pai seh bout it. but it's just a sudden thought in my mind so if you're reading this, heh don't take it seriously eh. so ashamed when i think of it. haha. boo you.

so apparently, bah no one is online. no one to talk to. =/

sleep ba.

Heli Dont ask me why 2:12 AM

Friday, March 18

The bigger one and the smaller one and... the earthworms.

Hah finally got to enjoy myself in the hols. Went out today eh! So happy with the neos especially the black one. Heh was quite guilty at first, but later thought "this is holiday what. go out wrong meh." lols so i managed to convince myself it's worthwhile.

Anyway with the two zha bo always "electrocuting" me kinda fun la. And the weird conversations the bigger one talked about. And the smaller one pei ing me be bodyguard of the bigger one's wallet. Kinda relaxing. I just like it like that. Smaller one and bigger one are nice peeps to hang out with. =D

bah but tonite was crap. hah i jus wanna dig a hole and hide now.

and so ya earthworms are noble. we are noble earthworm1.

"earthworms loosen the soil so that flowers can grow" E. W.

Heli Dont ask me why 2:30 AM

Thursday, March 17

wahhaha.. i just correct and recorrect and recorrect one of the math qn for like 6 times? Each time i discover another careless mistake. Blah. Careless careless careless.

Heli Dont ask me why 1:11 PM

i think sometimes i just feel somethings which i know i'm not suppose to and well kinda stupid also. But well, bah i still feel them. And yucks don't like that childish feelings i have. Shy to say out. And i can't write them here either. Oh what the hell.

Ok i'm just hum jee. dun dare write here. Lols.

Heli Dont ask me why 2:34 AM

Wednesday, March 16

[ you will know it when the piece doesn't fit in ]

if only you knew what i'm talking about. but well, it doesn't matter anyway.

i kept having aches these days eh. i think i lao le or something lols.

hah i don't know what to write. just update for fun eh.

my blog is like the blog's owner...

no life.

no life.

Heli Dont ask me why 2:06 AM

Friday, March 11

Feel like i missed out many things these days. Hmmm not really any concrete things but well.. just the left out look on my face and left out feelings i'm experiencing.

Getting pretty tight up today especially at the moment when i just heard my name and the marks i scored for econs. Boo. 8/25. No not the grades i'm upset about only. But more of what he scribbled on the very first page. POOR EFFORT.

Sighs don't know what i'm going to score.

Haven't pass a single math test this year.
Haven't pass any econs assignment either.
Not doing well in GP still.
Geog... haven't get back any tests though.

Bleah yeah probably cos of byg that's why my grades are going down. Bah but that's not a good excuse. Sad. Boo somebody please cheer me up... and i miss talking to you. =/

Heli Dont ask me why 11:24 PM

Wednesday, March 9

Grrrrrr.

Upset at how i talked to my dad. upset at my words. upset at my tone. BAh. i just couldn't talk to him nicely and i don't know why. And then.. yuting yucks ya know what happen la hor.

So i'm pissed. More pissed my brother want to use the com. NOW.

I just want to spell out.

F U C K.

but no offense on anyone. just so pissed with myself.

Heli Dont ask me why 10:50 PM

Sunday, March 6

It's over.

It ended all just nicely. Wo Men De Bai Yun Gang 2005 has finally ended. The days we spent in school till late at night, walking on the track to the school gate, watching the stars and moon in the sky.. turning back, it's all like a dream. Not forgetting the afternoon spent painting on the backdrop, and the moving of props from the CCA room to LT (not a short distance ok?!!?) All the gossiping of teachers and whoever during breaks and in the taxis. Poof. It's over.

For those that didn't know, yes i did teared yesterday night. The minute when the curtain closed and the lights went out and back again, it just all came down. So touched by the things we've done, it's really very touching. Went around hugging them and kept saying "wan le. zhong yi wan le." Hehe.. Now i jus love my cca lotsa. I just love them all. =)

And well... Apparently i just couldn't get any homework done. Had been sleeping and sleeping since yesterday till this morning. Not in the mind to do anything. I'm losing my voice and my head is heavy. All i know is i want to sleep more. Bleah i gotta buck up.

Block tests in two weeks time. [>.<]

Heli Dont ask me why 4:42 PM

Friday, March 4

The Day.

Much hardwork put in, time and effort committed, neglecting friends family studies, just for this day. I'm a little nervous, a little happy, a little worried, a little hopeful. I really wish that things will go well today and tomorrow.

Yesterday i received this sms saying "If God brings you to it, God will bring you through it." And yeah. I believe God is watching over me all these while. I feel happy about it and i know that He will be protecting me. Even if things go haywire later, I'm sure He will be there to make things turn right again.

Ya. I hope and wish and pray and believe that everything will be okay. =)

Heli Dont ask me why 10:09 AM

Wednesday, March 2

So let me come to you

Close as I wanted to be

Close enough for me

To feel your heart beating fast

And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on medid you ever know

That I had mine on you

Kinda miss this game lots when i hear the song.

Boo i want to play. I want to rest.

I need people to hong me. Lols.

Four more days. Four more.

I can survive.

"I'm waiting for you at the other end of the earth."

Heli Dont ask me why 12:21 AM

Tuesday, March 1

In life we walk a long long stretch of road. sometimes we stumble over small pebbles, i will ask you "are you alright?". other times we fell into pit holes, and i say "dun be afraid! i'm coming down for you!" so no matter how bad the situation is, there's just the same pros and cons. just a matter of you look on which side of the coin. but definitely, i'll walk with you thru out. =)

Heli Dont ask me why 1:14 AM

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